Hey guys so i just need to get some things off of my chest right now.....the past month almost has been a living hell, im going to a Junior college, taking 17 credit hours (the normal is around 12 im one away from the cap) and trying to focus on school. All the while im being yelled at by my parents to do more, to help more, to stop being the apparent deadbeat son i am (even when i say that around them they just shrug their shoulders). On top of that last weekend on my way home, i stopped at a truck that had taken a corner to fast and slid, flipped over and smashed its roof. The driver was someone from my graduating class in HS, the passenger was a girl by the name of Alyssa, who was still in high school a junior to be exact. When i pulled up the driver was out and running around freaking out about Alyssa, i was the second caller into 911 to report it. The first responder (a County Cop) told us to leave because we didn't see the accident happen. Lo and Behold when i wake up the next morning i find out that this girl who was still in HS died, and whats worse i knew her to some extent, it just didnt click. On top of all this a week ago, a girl i care about managed to get cut on her chest by one of my "Best Friends" one deep enough to need 66 Stitches, it was less than a cm away from puncturing her chest cavity and lung, whats worse is that this girl i care about is utterly in love with this guy, even through him doing that....so im stuck being the person keeping watch, because it was an accident to a point....so much crap has happened to me in the past month that i cant really even process it all right now, im totally lost on so many issues, my grades are suffering, and i can barely get myself out of bed in the morning. Right now the only thing keeping me going is the fact that i have to watch over that girl......that and this weekend i am seeing my all time favorite band in Chicago. Right now, im down and nothing is really helping.....im sorry iv dumped all this on you guys but really my rents refuse to talk to me about any of it and my friends really dont comprehend what im saying and going through...